creative endeavours update #5

hi everyone I'm back with another classic Saturday Update. you know, the update that I do every saturday. classic benny with their saturday update that happens one a week every week on a saturday. never missed a saturday!!

IM PHASING OUT WEDNESDAY UPDATE I'm changing it to saturday update until I change my mind and change it back. lol

ANYWAY


writing

still trucking away on amnesia fic. up to 16k now and I think there's probably five or six scenes left which could be anything from 5k to another 15k. I do think there's less than half of the fic left though. like I'm in the home stretch I think. kinda. maybe not the home stretch but the second half for sure. exciting!! I took a break because I got distracted by a different idea but I finished and posted that so I'm back on my amnesia fic grind agdjsjdkskd

oh yeah I uh. I posted a fic. I posted it anon bcs I'm hashtag embarrassed but it's a uh. yeah it's porn. basically. I've never written smut before but the idea gripped me and I wrote it and. yeah.

oh also me and em started working on something together which is very fun ^_^ I won't talk abt it too much bcs were still working it through but I love to write fics with my friends :D


books

no comment.

okay some comment. didn't really do anythingggggggg I don't KNOW I've just been so out of it I need my silly little crafts to make me feel better but I'm too bleh to do it. yknow?? I need to clear my desk and then I'll feel better. I can't work bcs there's too much shit on my desk which is such an easy problem to fix but. THINGS HARD


other

speaking of things that are easy to fix but are hard to do. sigh. a lot goin on with me rn. I'm feeling better about some things and worse about other things. I've got a lot of my unemployment stuff sorted which makes me feel better. I've been feeling generally pretty better about life stuff lately, like before everything felt so impossible, but now it's like I just need to get a job and then maybe a car and then somewhere to live. that's like. only 3 things. idk

so that's good, things are kind of on the up for me like life wise (tentatively hopeful voice). but also in the last few weeks I've had some uh. health problems. that were fineish but have gotten worse in the last few days. it's nothing terrible, I'm ok, it's just been depressing and painful. and stressful. so many things 2 be stressed abt but at least I have jake and amir fanfiction. lmao

ALSO that reminds me idk yet what I'm gonna do about nanowrimo. idk if I have the capacity right now to write an original idea esp since I have a lot of stuff brewing right now, and I would love to write a fanfic bcs that's a lot easier and less strenuous on my brain. BUT. it's the 10 year anniversary of my first nano and I think it would be cool to write something original. OOOOOOOOH maybe I'll rewrite my nano novel from 2013 that could be kind of a cute full circle moment. it WAS terrible though so maybe I'll just come up with something else lmao. but yeah ten years of nano and I've never won one but I'm also writing more than I ever have been in my LIFE in the last year or so. could be my year. the big 10. idk life is exciting!! there are many fun interesting things to do in this world!!!!!!

OH ALSO the sign up form for the j&a exchange drops this week!!!!! the 16th I'm pretty sure, whenever that is lmao. it's more or less done I made it ages ago but I gotta finish it up. get it polished yknow. I'm pretty excited about it. I love to have an Event to be hyped about even if I don't have oodles of event planning experience aha.


so yeah to conclude things are bad but they are also good. the duality of blah blah blah you get it. lots to be stressed about but lots to be excited about!! sorry for talking for 1 million years OK BYEEEE <3