dacergirl369 | Entries tagged with wips update

I told myself I wouldn't post on dreamwidth until I got all my gift exchange fics done and as of approximately 1 minute ago at time of writing I HAVE!!! boy has this been an exhausting gift exchange season for me. I need to retire. but at the same time it's been SOOOO FREAKING FUN even if I did let myself get a little stressed out at the end there. I was also so nervous literally everyone was gonna hate their gifts even though I made such a effort to make them as tailored as possible for people but its just my naturally skittish and anxious nature I guess.

BUT THEYRE DONE and most people liked them (I've not heard from the last one yet by nature of it only being posted 2 minutes ago) so!!! I consider that a success. I ended up writing 4 gift exchange fics in the end up across 2 exchanges. that's literally not that many in the grand scheme of things like some people write sooooooo much but you have to understand this is HUGE for me. lmao.

now that I've got all my writing for other people out of the way for a hot second at least I can finally shift to writing for ME and return to producing the stupidest ~~and horniest~~ ideas possible. 2024 the year of ideas that make even less sense than my ideas did last year. and we were already on thin ice. I'm excited<3

MUCH TO BE EXCITED FOR IN THE COMING YEAR. I got Ideas and Plans and Fics and I wanna do more fandom events and am just generally excited for it. I've actually been sooooooo anxious the last few days and it's been really bad today specifically but I'm trying to focus on good things because there really is a lot to look forward to and be excited about. yayyyyyyyy

Current Mood: accomplished

hii :3

I don't really have any updates I just felt like I haven't posted on dreamwidth in a while and I like doing it. oh I posted amnesia fic I guess that's actually kind of a mega update?? that's been very fun. everyone was very nice about it. though it has made me realise kinda that I'm always trying to get down on myself bcs literally the week before I posted it I was like "well I like it but I just think EVERYONE ELSE is gonna hate it and think it sucks" and then I posted it and people were really nice about it and now I'm like. "well that's great but it doesn't change that I hate it and think it should be better" like I can twist anything into anything to tear myself down about it I don't knowwwwwww anyway.

I now have THREE gift exchange fics to write and another BONUS gift fic that I want to write but worry I won't have time for. somehow ended up with quite a lot on my plate lmao rip. still struggling with having an idea I like for the janda exchange but someone dropped out and I decided to just pitch hit it myself because what's easier than having one idea?? having two ideas. and I'm ALSO in the naddpod exchange which I'm excited about because I haven't actually written any naddpod fic before so!! exciting!!!

yeahhhh so lots going on things 2 be excited about. I'm mostly just very tired tbh. this last week has been super hard for no real reason other than sometimes things are hard. this is always a hard time of year for me though, I think once the new year rolls around itll get better. just gotta focus on what's fun and good and wait the other shit out lmao.

BYEEEEEEEE

Current Mood: tired

HIIIIIIIIII I got to work SO fucking early today because the bus was really fast and it's my first day on early shif so I did not know the bus would be that fast. SO IM DOING MONDAY UPDATE NOW AT MY DESK. even though I don't really have all that much to say. lol.

ANYWAY I think I've finished editing my amnesia fic now. I might do one final pass before I post it on like thursday but I think it's sorted. so yeah I'm excited to post that!! I still worry it's not very good but I found myself enjoying it when I was reading it for editing so I think it's fine??? I don't knowwwee I love to stress myself out for no reason. I get so hashtag scared every single one I post on ao3 that like everyone is gonna comment saying "we hate this and we hate you booooooo" and like obviously that's not gonna happen. probably. but I can't stop being scared about it I don't knowwwww

ANYWAY ANYWAY wrote more transfem jake. obsessed with her lately. also wrote some nb jake. been having a lot of trans emotions lately. thinking a lot of trans thoughts. as per. yeah. sometimes you just need to give blorbo the genders for your health. I've also been THINKING about my gift exchange fic which is only one step removed from working on it. sooooo. I still think I hate my idea and I might shift and do a 5+1 but I don't know about THAT either. sigh how do I have ten thousand ideas at all times until I need an idea and then I have no ideas. NOT IDEAL

oh happy basically the end of nano I could not have failed worse agshhajsjka. I wrote maybe like 700 words of my nano project. I should have just let myself do a fanfic because I'm fairly certain I've written 50k words worth of fanfic this month but I've not been keeping track of it because it wasn't my nano project lmao. just gonna tell myself that I did. no one can prove I didn't. mwahaha

YEAH not a huge update but thinking about Things And Stuff. excited!! even though it's literally 8am on a monday morning aka the worst time ever. :P

Current Mood: tired

hello!!!!

i put off doing my saturday update because i REFUSED to make it until it could truthfully include the phrase "i finished the first draft of my amnesia fic" AND!! as of noonish today i offically CAN say that. its took all of my fucking life force for the last two months but its done. im so fucking pleased to have it done, but also like. idk if ive just been too close to it for too long but idk if i think its any good. im not thinking too much about it bcs thats just first draft things i guess and it needs A LOT of work still in editing but. still. thats good. i wanna not look at it for a few days maybe so that i can read it with fresh eyes, and then im hoping to post it on the 30th?? bcs thats the anniversary of when i posted afterlove?? so that can be like. my longfic day. im stealing posting on the same day every year from dandelionblizzard bcs i thought it was cool i hope thats ok. but also i might get antsy and post it sooner. but also it might not be done by then. but also. but also

ive been super dedicated to getting amnesia fic finished so ive not worked a lot on anything else but now that im taking a light break before starting editing im probably gonna work on something else but i dont have like a solid idea what my next thing is. i have fics that im excited about (transfem jake) and then i have fics that have deadlines (gift exchange & holiday gift fics) and then i have fics that i wanna work on but dont know that i have good ideas for (ourorboros & genderbend) and its like. AAAAAAAAA. i dont know. i think priority 1 should be my exchange fic but i dont know that i love my idea and might wait to see if i get a better one. but i dont wanna wait TOO long bcs i also wanna do the naddpod exchange and i dont wanna be sitting around on christmas eve with like 3 fics due. but also i think my idea is BORING LIKE I THINK I CAN DO BETTER

but yeah!! fun stuff!! im happy with how things are going. excited. lots to be excited about. you'll be seeing stuff from me soon hopefully but also not THAT soon lmao. but also soonish. but also but also but also

OK BYE :D

Current Mood: accomplished

hiiiiiiiii. :P

big week for me!! or two weeks I guess. got a job. still waiting on my vetting checks but fingers crossed I can start next week. fun and cool!! now just need somewhere to live. and a car. things are just about lookin up for me. yay :D

writing

OKIE so I've been working on amnesia fic like I said I would because I want to FINISH IT. it's close to the end I think. it's at like 18.5k rn and I think it's gonna be finished at like 25k, at least for the first draft.

I've not made as much progress on amnesia fic as I would like bcs I said NO NEW PROJECTS and then proceeded to write 5k words of a transfem jake fic that is just UNPOSTABLE. might still post it though. we will see. I also was working on ouroboros a little bit but that doesn't count because that's not a NEW project I'm allowed to do that.

ANYWAY NANO STARTS THIS WEEK!! starts TOMORROW actually which. shit that's soon. I still don't really know what I'm gonna do. I need to settle on an idea. uhhhhhhh probably something with demons maybe. or magic. or just like a romcom. NOT SURE WILL CONFIRM LATER

books

ok soooooooo uh. I have something to Confess. I accidentally turned optics into a brick. yeah like a solid brick of paper. it's my bad. I tried to gild the edges in a way that ABSOLUTELY has not worked. and I uh. yeah. the pages. there are no pages. it's a block now. so that's a setback

I'm leaving it to fully dry out and HOPING I can slice the pages apart individually BUT I might have to just start from scratch which isn't the worst thing in the world but WE'LL SEE. on the bright side the edge gilding looks absolutely SICK. just fucking incredible. it really worked well if you are not interested in your book having pages or being a book. so yeah the method needs some work but it LOOKS great

other

YEAH!! job now. that's fun. it's taken a lot of the stress off my shoulders to at least know I've got some money coming in. or like, the prospect of some money coming in. I've been having anxiety dreams about emails from all the thousands of forms and information requests they've been emailing me but I think it's still net less stressful overall lmao

oooh we had game night in the janda server for the first time the other night and it was so fun!! we played jackbox and it was an extremely good time. also played an accent game because we are hashtag international. very cool very fun night :)

I don't wanna keep talking about health stuff a lot bcs I don't wanna make it like a Whole Thing but I'm feeling better about it. like I'm managing better. it's shitty but I'm managing. I think that's all you can do. I don't know. I've never been good at like. rationing. only a little bit now so that I have some left for later. I'm not good at that shit but I'm working on it. onwards and upwards I guess??

OH and the janda exchange closes tonight!! exciting. I have no idea why I set two weeks for giftee assignments because I'm almost definitely gonna do it with 24 hours lmao but!!! still exciting

SO YEAH that's what's goin on with me. I might start talking about nano here if I even end up doing it lmao. but!!! lots of stuff in the works. I'm having fun creatively. I have to cut a book to pieces with a box cutter. lots on the agenda for me!!!!

Current Mood: excited

hi everyone I'm back with another classic Saturday Update. you know, the update that I do every saturday. classic benny with their saturday update that happens one a week every week on a saturday. never missed a saturday!!

IM PHASING OUT WEDNESDAY UPDATE I'm changing it to saturday update until I change my mind and change it back. lol

ANYWAY

writing

still trucking away on amnesia fic. up to 16k now and I think there's probably five or six scenes left which could be anything from 5k to another 15k. I do think there's less than half of the fic left though. like I'm in the home stretch I think. kinda. maybe not the home stretch but the second half for sure. exciting!! I took a break because I got distracted by a different idea but I finished and posted that so I'm back on my amnesia fic grind agdjsjdkskd

oh yeah I uh. I posted a fic. I posted it anon bcs I'm hashtag embarrassed but it's a uh. yeah it's porn. basically. I've never written smut before but the idea gripped me and I wrote it and. yeah.

oh also me and em started working on something together which is very fun ^_^ I won't talk abt it too much bcs were still working it through but I love to write fics with my friends :D

books

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okay some comment. didn't really do anythingggggggg I don't KNOW I've just been so out of it I need my silly little crafts to make me feel better but I'm too bleh to do it. yknow?? I need to clear my desk and then I'll feel better. I can't work bcs there's too much shit on my desk which is such an easy problem to fix but. THINGS HARD

other

speaking of things that are easy to fix but are hard to do. sigh. a lot goin on with me rn. I'm feeling better about some things and worse about other things. I've got a lot of my unemployment stuff sorted which makes me feel better. I've been feeling generally pretty better about life stuff lately, like before everything felt so impossible, but now it's like I just need to get a job and then maybe a car and then somewhere to live. that's like. only 3 things. idk

so that's good, things are kind of on the up for me like life wise (tentatively hopeful voice). but also in the last few weeks I've had some uh. health problems. that were fineish but have gotten worse in the last few days. it's nothing terrible, I'm ok, it's just been depressing and painful. and stressful. so many things 2 be stressed abt but at least I have jake and amir fanfiction. lmao

ALSO that reminds me idk yet what I'm gonna do about nanowrimo. idk if I have the capacity right now to write an original idea esp since I have a lot of stuff brewing right now, and I would love to write a fanfic bcs that's a lot easier and less strenuous on my brain. BUT. it's the 10 year anniversary of my first nano and I think it would be cool to write something original. OOOOOOOOH maybe I'll rewrite my nano novel from 2013 that could be kind of a cute full circle moment. it WAS terrible though so maybe I'll just come up with something else lmao. but yeah ten years of nano and I've never won one but I'm also writing more than I ever have been in my LIFE in the last year or so. could be my year. the big 10. idk life is exciting!! there are many fun interesting things to do in this world!!!!!!

OH ALSO the sign up form for the j&a exchange drops this week!!!!! the 16th I'm pretty sure, whenever that is lmao. it's more or less done I made it ages ago but I gotta finish it up. get it polished yknow. I'm pretty excited about it. I love to have an Event to be hyped about even if I don't have oodles of event planning experience aha.

so yeah to conclude things are bad but they are also good. the duality of blah blah blah you get it. lots to be stressed about but lots to be excited about!! sorry for talking for 1 million years OK BYEEEE <3

Current Mood: excited

I think this is number 4 but I'm not gonna check. lol.

YEAH hi. I'm posting my wednesday update on saturday. it's whatever. I kept putting this off bcs I felt kinda bad that id not made any good progress in the last few days and I wanted to wait until I did something cool BUT cest la vie.

writing

my focus is still mostly on amnesia fic even if I aren't making extremely fast progress lmao. the doc is up to like 13k now and still growing which is wild and I don't have a good idea of how long it's gonna end up tbh. I'm fully winging it so the story is becoming clear to me as it is unfolding and then I'll make it good and sensical in editing (well. more). so it could be like 2k longer it could be 10k I literally don't know lmao. I wanted originally to post it on the 19th bcs that's my one year j&a fic anniversary but now I don't think it's gonna be done by then lmao. so I might write something else to post on the 19th. or I might finish amnesia fic. or I might not do anything. :)

books

ok so I do actually have legit progress to report. kind of. I got optics officially textblocked and in the press and I want to gild the edge with this holographic foil I have but idk if it's gonna work and I'm nervous to try but I WANT to try. if I screw it up I'll be so bummed though. I also got a little trigger happy with the guillotine and made it a little smaller than I wanted it to be. I'm binding it A7 and I haven't 100% got the hang of sizing small books yet. I also made a cover design with the intention to print it on my inkjet fabric and do a full cloth bind (I'm getting deja vu so maybe I already talked about this. I'm not gonna check though) which is fun I love custom designs AND full cloth binds but that means I have to face my enemy (the hob) and cook some wheatpaste to make the bookcloth (EVIL TASK THAT I HATE). wah

other

HUGE WEEK FOR GUYS WHO ARE ME. first episode of burrows end was so fun and good I'm loving it. it's like a season cast for me personally to enjoy. not to be parasocial but so many favourite guys. izzy roland love of my fucking life. I'm lovin it even if one of those stoats is 1000% gonna die agdjhsjs

okokOK time for what has ACTUALLY been on my mind for every single second since I first listened to it yesterday. HUGE naddpod episode this week. spoiler alert bcs I'm about to talk about it but: 254 DAYS I WAITED AND CALDER IS FINALLY FREE. I WAITED SO LONG FOR HIM TO RETURN AND HES HEREEEEEE HES FINALLY BACK. I could cry. I did cry. I will continue to cry. and that's not even mentioning all the other stuff from that ep. huge week for hardwon. basically everything hardwon did made me cry and the duck team reunion made me SO emotional. I'm trying to live in the moment and enjoy this as the incredible episode it was, episode of all time, and not think about the fact that we're maybe gonna see moonshine next episode because I'll get to excited I could throw up. I've been saying for 8 months that when we get calder back I'm going to become insufferable which I have BUT if we see moonshine. and get a hardshine reunion. I'll literally never ever be normal ever again. EVER. I do also want to/hope we see bev but my heart has not made peace with adult bev yet. a terrifying concept. yeah I'm trying to hunk about the next episode so I don't get too excited but thinking about this episode ALSO makes me too excited.

also is it just me or did callie and calder kind of have a vibe in this episode. 👀. "winter looks good on you" "his home is wherever I am" ARE YOU GUYS TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING. anyway duck team polycule real. the swag daniels/dag swaniels love triangle prophecy is fulfilling itself

ALSO also my sister is in town which is nice. yay

OKAY THANK U BYE

Current Mood: ecstatic

HI HELLO back on the right day of the week this time. god the week goes by so fast. ive not had time to DO anything yet its only been like 4 minutes since last wednesday. lol.

anyway.

WHAT A WEEK TO BE A DROPOUT GIRLIE. JEEZ. IM EXHAUSTED. dropping the announcement for junior year at random in the middle of the day on a tuesday caught me very off guard and im honestly still recovering but!!!! EXTREMELY EXCITING!!! and more exciting stuff n the anniversary video. love to see it :D but yeah rest in peace collegehumor <3

writing

OKAY so last week i said that i had a new fun idea for a j&a fic about ghost stuff which remains true but i havent touched it since rip. BUT. thats mostly because i had another DIFFERENT idea for a jake amnesia fic that i became so instantly obsessed with that i churned out like 7.5k in the last couple of days which is pretty huge progress for me.

so thats probably the next thing on my list of things to finish BUT with the junior year announcement i realise i neeeeeed to finish the fourth dimension before junior year comes out in january so i might be committing most of my time to that until its done but also if i dont feel like it i might not. this is like a non update lol but i just wanna highlight i have fourth dimension on the brain at least

not written any oneshots this week which kinda sucks i should get on that. but also ive been putting all of my words into this one fic for the last few days and i have to chase the motivation while it stays lmao

books

MANY MORE FAILED EXPERIMENTS!!!!!!!!! many many. many. basically zero progress this week if you dont count figuring out many ways to not do things. lol. but i had some NEW ideas which im very excited to trial this week. im thinking printing on my inkjet fabric and using that as bookcloth for a full cloth bind and then using the marbled paper i was GOING to use as the cover for a 3/4 bind as endpapers. we'll see how that pans out lol

thats all for optics btw i havent even folded mhiiya lmao. hopefully i can finish optics this week and really start on mhiiya

other

not done much else this week tbh. bought a digital camera in an ebay auction. my friend asked me to go see mika with her and i had to say no bcs i dont think i could afford it which is kinda lame. but i DO have d20 tickets for april which im so freaking hype for.

i never know whether to put this under a read more or not and change my mind literally every time lol. i have no idea. its probably fine??

I LOVE YOU ALL BYEEEEEEEE <3

Current Mood: awake

hellooooooooooo i meant to write this yesterday bcs i wanted this to be like a Wednesday Thing but honestly i just wasnt feeling it so now its a today thing. had such an off week idk who is in retrograde or whatever but jeeeeeeez. lol

WELL lets get into it. under a cut this time bcs idk feels right

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OK BYE :D

Current Mood: frustrated

hiiiiiiii im writing this as im watching the mentopolis finale and just wanted to talk randomly abt what projects and stuff im working on now and what kinda progress im lookin at. the biggest respect to people who can make moves in silence and work on stuff in private but that could never be me. i dont know how to keep my mouth shut. lol!! anyway

writing

ok so ive been working a lottttt on my genderbend jake and amir college au and i think i have the first chapter (part?? idk) written. its up on my neocities already but still needs editing which im hoping to do tonight/tomorrow. im thinking maybe ill post it in

amirandjake hopefully tomorrow since ive been posting there everyday and kinda feel like keepin that goin lmao. the whole doc is up to around 13k now and im thinking it gonna come out maybe around 50k in the end but im not sure how fast i can get it done.

alternatively ive also been working on my teeny oneshot series growing pains, two of which i posted here and here.

i really wanna get to working on the next chapter of ourorboros but its fighting with the inside of my brain right now so we'll see lol. i would love to really get to working on it proper in the next week but i only somewhat control the words my brain produces lmao

books

im technically working on my home is in your arms by my friend and tumblr mutual alli but its still in typesetting and im making pretty slow progress because ive not had a lot of Good Peaceful Computer Time in the last couple of weeks. am hoping to at least get it to printed stage in the next few days so i can get to actually binding it!!! we will seeeeeeeeeee

also got a few other things on the list but i wont talk specifics bcs ive not oked them yet. or started them yet

other

been working on my neocities a good bit and its wild as a former webdev how astoundingly little of any of this shit i remember. lmao. i thought it would come flooding back when i got into it but youd think id never seen a stylesheet in my life. but im having fun!!! im enjoying trying to figure it out even if i keep making things worse because i refuse to read a tutorial aha

ANYWAY so thats more or less what ive been up to. i never know what to post on my dreamwidth page so ive decided its just gonna be whatever i want and what i want is to talk about my projects in progress

OK THANKS FOR READING BYEEEEEEEE <3